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It Is What It Is
Feb. 8th, 2025 07:40 pmThings have been pretty busy around these parts the past two weeks. As you may have noticed, since I haven't posted jack nor shit in a while. We have been having Grace over 2-3 times a week, and while the company is great it does keep me from doing my normal routine. I don't even look at my phone as much when we have company over because I'm usually bugging whoever is staying with us instead of tweeting.
While having Grace over was a little bit more stressful than not doing that, I have otherwise just reached a sort of emotional limit. I have officially sent an email about a therapist, which I ought to have done years ago. It's just really scary. Opening up to people around me is already hard, now I am supposed to do that with a total stranger? Yeesh. But I do think it will ultimately be for the better. I have been carrying plenty of shit with me that I would love to set aside even just a little bit.
I have mostly been playing Marvel Rivals and working. I did put out two podcasts, though! Journal Updated is a podcast I do with Molly (of Reprise, Eidolon, etc fame). Every month we play a video game and talk about it. This month was Too Human! One of the great flops of gaming, Too Human began its life as a ps1 game before spending the next 9 years bouncing between iterations, publishers, and platforms. We had a good conversation about it, I think! I was also on the premium Abnormal Mapping podcast VoIP Life, where my wife and I were given two hours to explain Brandon Sanderson's Cosmere to our friend Em. It was a great time! I could have gone one for twice that time. As their most premium of premium pods, VoIP is behind the paywall and is worth every penny every time.
It does feel good to release podcasts again. It can sometimes feel like I never get anything done. And I don't get nearly as much done as I used to. I used to record so many podcasts. I just don't have the energy anymore. I gotta unwind a bit when I'm not at work. My job isn't that crazy but it really does wear me the fuck out every shift. It's discouraging! I want to do more with my life than just work and get ready for work. That's what this blog is, if you think about it. Anything worth doing is worth half-assing; even if you half-ass it, at least it gets done. Even if I go a week and a half without posting, I'm still posting.
Oh, did you hear the Pillows broke up? Bummer. Great band.
While having Grace over was a little bit more stressful than not doing that, I have otherwise just reached a sort of emotional limit. I have officially sent an email about a therapist, which I ought to have done years ago. It's just really scary. Opening up to people around me is already hard, now I am supposed to do that with a total stranger? Yeesh. But I do think it will ultimately be for the better. I have been carrying plenty of shit with me that I would love to set aside even just a little bit.
I have mostly been playing Marvel Rivals and working. I did put out two podcasts, though! Journal Updated is a podcast I do with Molly (of Reprise, Eidolon, etc fame). Every month we play a video game and talk about it. This month was Too Human! One of the great flops of gaming, Too Human began its life as a ps1 game before spending the next 9 years bouncing between iterations, publishers, and platforms. We had a good conversation about it, I think! I was also on the premium Abnormal Mapping podcast VoIP Life, where my wife and I were given two hours to explain Brandon Sanderson's Cosmere to our friend Em. It was a great time! I could have gone one for twice that time. As their most premium of premium pods, VoIP is behind the paywall and is worth every penny every time.
It does feel good to release podcasts again. It can sometimes feel like I never get anything done. And I don't get nearly as much done as I used to. I used to record so many podcasts. I just don't have the energy anymore. I gotta unwind a bit when I'm not at work. My job isn't that crazy but it really does wear me the fuck out every shift. It's discouraging! I want to do more with my life than just work and get ready for work. That's what this blog is, if you think about it. Anything worth doing is worth half-assing; even if you half-ass it, at least it gets done. Even if I go a week and a half without posting, I'm still posting.
Oh, did you hear the Pillows broke up? Bummer. Great band.
